Heard this in the car on the way home...

These lyrics (except for the boy part and the chemical part! lol) largely reflect how I look back at the last nine years of my life...and actually, to some extent, everything before that too. It's not a GREAT song but it is kinda unusual and catchy once you hear it a couple of times...and I like it because of the lyrics.

It makes me happy to think I am moving further and further from this place everyday...but it also reminds me about the kind of selfishness that allowed me to end up there in the first place. For me, the title is a cop-out...it was the way I justified my behaviour and had nothing to do with WHY I was able to act the way I did. But now that I think of it, maybe that's another reason to like it; the fact that I now recognize that it's a cop-out..or was, at least for me...

Note: I took out some stuff in the middle 'cause it doesn't really apply...hey, I can do that 'cause I have that power! :o)

When I was a young boy
I was honest and I had more self-control
If I was tempted I would run
Then, when I got older
I began to lie to get exactly what I wanted
When I wanted it - And I wanted it
Now, I'm having trouble differentiating
Between what I want
And what I need
To make me happy
So instead of thinking I just stop
Before I have the chance to contemplate the
Consequences of action
Bridge:
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
Burying the voices of my conscience hitting ground
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
The chemicals are restless in my head
Chorus:
'Cuz I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to
All the time
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this is
All a part of my flawed design
...
Bridge [x2]:
'Cuz I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to
All the time
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this is
All a part of my -
'Cuz I lie
And if I could control it
Maybe I could leave it all behind
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this is all a part of my
Flawed design

Flawed Design - Stabilo